Here is the honest to goodness truth: I have not been happy with myself lately. In fact, I can see that a lot of my friends haven’t been happy with themselves lately, either. Maybe it’s just getting to be that time of year. Seasonal Affective Disorder — when everyone stays indoors because it is cold and windy and snowy and whatever else and thus become depressed — seems to be starting early. Or maybe I’m taking it too far and we’re just not being the people we want to be.
Mr. Charlie McDonnell inspired me to write this post today. You may know him. Famous YouTuber, British, cute as a button. Vlogs about basically anything from Doctor Who to writing songs about disliking himself to Charlie Challenges. Yesterday though, he posted this. It made me think “Why can’t I express myself so honestly, too?” So here it is:
I think I’ve just hit a rut. I think a lot of our generation has. I want to say that’s not okay. I want to say that we should be trying to fix this. I want to say that we must find happiness. But in all honesty, is there really anything wrong with being unhappy for a few minutes, hours, days even? I don’t think so. Sometimes you just need time. Whether it’s grieving over a death, a broken friendship or relationship, a horrible event or even just a gloomy day. It’s better, sometimes, to just take that time and revel in the sadness.
This is the catch: if you’re going to wallow in self-despair, don’t forget that there are so many things to be thankful for. Whether you’re thanking God, Zeus, or the starry sky, just be thankful. For anyone reading this, you’ve got a computer. Or access to one. You’ve probably got clothes on your back, a roof over your head, food to eat and family and friends that love you. It’s time to be thankful for all the small things. The sun, the rain, your sense of smell, pencil sharpeners! (Let’s be serious, how difficult would like be if you had to whittle down your own pencils). Once you’re done being thankful for the small things, be thankful for the small victories in life. The first A on a test, your headache going away, a friend texting you after months, the bus coming on time (or hell, early!), finding a really great new song!
Bottom line: be unhappy but, also be thankful. There’s a lot out there in the world that we take for granted. And trust me, once you begin making a list of things you’re thankful for (mentally, physically, whatever), you’ll feel a lot better. I already am just by writing this.